my · thoughts

In two weeks I will be gone. Back in the old country. It isn't for long, but hopefully it will be long enough to catch my breath and tuck in until July.
Then I will be free and I can leave and go some place new. Meet new people and start an actual life of my own.

Honestly there is not much to report. I work and its ok, I'll make it through the rest of the year and I don't think I'll damage any of the kids.
Other than work, I game, I sing, I work out, and I watch movies. So nothing to different there.
Last week one of my frieds told me that I need to get into a relationship to keep myself busy. And where I'd love to have one, I hate to say it isn't gonna happen anytime soon. Right now I don't know any men worth my time to date. That and I think most guys are the devil, or will turn out to be the devil. So its a no go there.
Other than work and my small life I get bitched out by girlfriends and ex girlfriends of my ex's or friends. And the male in question always sides with her. And says I'm the screw up. So yeah all kinds of fun.

So yesterday Ben finally called Char Em with his answer. So after waiting for a conformation for about 2 weeks I finally got one. And in the mail today I got my schedule for training. So things are all set.
Or not. So after giving up on all the schools I applied to for the fall, today in the mail I got my acceptance letter from Seton Hall, for their Asian Studies Program.
So now I’m torn. I technically have an obligation to work with Char Em, but I really want to go to Seton Hall. Oh well. I guess I’ll just do what was set up first and go to school next year, if I’m not teaching over seas.

I will become everything they want. And then I will deny them. Just because I'm bitter and sick of all the bullshit.

i guess all i have to say is that boys suck. i'm sick of em and want to beat them all with stick.
things will never work out
i'll probably never date again, cause the one's i like don't like me, that and things never work out even when i think they will.

I got flowers at work today, from a guy named Ray. I feel bad, because i know he's one of the regulars, I just can't remember which one. They're pretty, and I'm thinking they weren't that cheap. Oh well.

There are a lot of things that I am unsure of right now. And a few things that I am unhappy with. But I guess thats life.
Thursday, Friday and Saturday were pretty good though.

somone please tell me how friends take an extended break. because i was just told by a friend of 10yrs that if we don't take a break things would fall apart. tell me does it make sence? and does it really sound like a friend of 10 yrs?

I got back lastnight around 12:30 or 1 am. The trip to MN was long and tiering. But its done. The school seems nice and the area is ok. I just don't know. Oh well, I guess I have time. I should be going home at some point in time this week or next week, but I don't know yet.
to do still:
call sis
study for GRE
register for GRE
take some stuff home
take GRE
take Kevin Smith Films
find summer job
send out GA apps for MNSU
send out app for Seton Hall
figure out what will make me happy
(i think thats it but i don't know)

So while I was in walmart today, getting things that I forgot to get yesterday my "good knee" decided to remind me that it wasn't that good. This is was I like to call my knee trying to commit suicide in the middle of walmart. Now I'll tell you what this means. It means that my knee seezed up, then catched and popped. This means that I did a nice little ass plant onto the floor. So I've been sitting on the couch the rest of the day in pain. I'm not sure how well sleeping is going to go tonight, but I will try eventually.
On a different note I had a very interesting dream last night. Will was in it and then Will turned into Bryant. I think thats about all I'll say about it for now, if you need to know ask me and I may tell. It was really bizzar though.
Well I think thats about it.
Later